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An End 4 Now

Fri, 10 Apr 2009 18:45:14 GMT

as usual the title says it all.. i wont be blogging regularly anymore.. i have 2 much rite now n i have neglected many things when i blog.. i will b prioritizing my life so this is nt on the top of my list.. if i hav free time i might update.. its just that things have gone downhill since my results came out.. so now i have 2 climb back up again.. i hav lost the desire 2 do anithin.. just would like 2 b nth rite now.. i hav nth in my life now other than family.. take care guys.......

A New Beginning

Fri, 03 Apr 2009 17:28:31 GMT

18 years has passed since the day i was born.. n it has been a heck of a journey so far.. a journey that hopefully is still at the beginning.. i have had the goods n the bads bt i hav no regrets 4 all i hav done.. 2day is the start of my 19th year n the start of my dads 48th year.. this is sumthin im proud 2 share wif him n i hav alwayz enjoyed celebrating our b'dayz 2gether.. unfortunately i just got bak from the airport where i had 2 watch him go 2 tehran on the eve of the celebrations.. so 4 the 2nd year running its just me that will b celebrating.. i m proud of all my achievements that i have obtained n have been a privileged to have known all hu has crossed paths wif me n will never 4get wat u guyz have done 4 me.. if i hav ever mistreated u in any way i would apoligize 2 u in an instant.. so now its time 4 me 2 let go of my past n alwayz think bout the present.. cos that is all i hav left.. the future is still unclear 4 me.. its nt sumthin i want 2 think of rite now..

this 19th year will b the best year of my life.. it has 2 b.. as long as its better than last year then it will b enough.. a year where i hav my goals.. a year where i will attempt 2 try n actually achieve them.. a year where i will hav 2 control me from being me.. i hav 2 learn many things which i need 2 b whole.. that is sumthin i may never have bt a step 2wards that is alwayz welcomed.. a year where a will strive 2 overcome all obstacles.. a year 2 b independant.. 2 come out of the shell which has protected me.. which is my parents n 2 a bigger extent the laws.. this will b where i hav 2 grow as an individual n just b myself n stop being insecure of wat others think of me..

this is wat i wanna achieve this year.. n i vow 2 do my best.. the time is now n thats all i hav..

My Past

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 15:10:37 GMT

lately i hav been reminiscing my past in my free time.. the past is sumthin that we can cherish all the gud times bt also sumthin we wish we can change 2 make ammends 4 all the wrongs we hav done.. thinking bout it brings bak all the times i hav spent wif my family n frenz.. whether new or old i will nvr 4get all the things u guyz hav done 4 me n i wish u can 4give me if i ever hurt u in any way..

i hav alwayz tend 2 b emotional in wateva i do.. u can refer my previous post 2 get the details.. i hav alwayz fallen 4 ppl around me.. whether i noe them or nt it does nt change wat i feel bout them.. i will alwayz judge a person on how they act which is where i will get feelings 4 them.. even if i do fall 4 sum1 it doesnt mean that i will go all out 2 get her as i will alwayz take my time.. i will alwayz share it 2 my closest fren hueva it may b at the time.. im a very old fashioned person in anithin i approach n i alwayz wanna do it the rite way.. this leaves me 2 b very conservative n will nt b brave enough 2 take action.. over the past few years i hav fallen 4 ppl over n over again.. bt i hav never been wif any of them.. my last n oni 1 was wif sum1 hu liked me rather than me liking her.. obviously that didnt end well n im bak 2 square 1.. i dunno y im being so open bout this 2day bt i just feel like expressing wat i feel rite now n get it off my chest..

letting go has alwayz been the hardest.. it may take a short time to get over this bt it may take longer sumtimes.. rite now im at that stage again bt im doin better than previously.. 2 the ppl that dont noe me that well u will never expect all these things as i may alwayz act cheerful n full of life bt actually it is just my way 2 protect myself from my weaknesses.. that weakness will alwayz b there.. it is alwayz haunt me n never leave me alone.. this will b fealt by ppl hu r dear 2 my heart n they will b the oni ones hu will noe how i feel.. i wish it can be quaratined so that it does nt hurt me or any1 else.. that weakness is me....

1st Day of a New Month

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 15:11:42 GMT

2day is the 1st day of april which the month where my birthday falls under.. unfortunately it has nt always been a great month 4 me.. this year will b diff.. i vow 2 enjoy this month as much as i can..

        anywayz march ended quite well.. it was t5 day which would b boring bt bill came n surprised us all wif a test.. nt a t5 test bt a personality test.. so i followed the instructions n was eager 2 find out the results.. out of 4 main categories i was categorised under 'I' which stands 4 influential.. i alwayz tot out of the 4 that would suit me best n i was rite.. i took me a while 2 change from being under category 'D' which is dominant.. when i was younger all i cared bout was myself.. 4 myself 2 succeed instead of others.. i would strive 4 competition n could nt accept anithin other than winning.. it gave me a drive in anithin i do.. bt as times went on i lost this part of me.. i went on 2 nt care bout anithin n just go around life 2 enjoy all things that made me happy.. 4 a while i gave up football 2 achieve this until the things i persued all ended up at a dead end.. so that was when i started 2 realise that football is wat i enjoy most which is where i m 2day being part of 2 organisations as coaches n leisurely have a kick about every other evening..

        bak to the point.. mr. bill then ltr explained about each category.. each 1 has its own strengh n weaknesses.. in my category it did state that im emotional.. which is so true.. when i do sumthin it depends on my mood n all that determines the quality n work ethic that i put towards it.. so when im nt in the mood 2 do sumthin i will neglect or refuse 2 do it while when im in the mood i would be eagerly want 2 start n get it done.. it also stated that i was disorganised which is so obvious.. at that time u can look at my table n c that.. so i was shell-shocked when the results that were quite accurate in a way n it made me wonder wat would suit ppl around me.. i even was thinking which will suit me the best.. i do hav my preference which i hav tot through but i wont state it here.. it is sumthin i will keep 2 myself n will only tell if i ever feel like it..

       now bak 2 the title.. this post was meant 2 b bout 2day n all bt i ended up blogging bout yesterday.. class started at 11 2day so i woke as late as possible n took my time 2 get ready 4 college.. i honestly tot it started at 11.30 so i procrastinated 4 a long time.. i was oni 40 mins late in a 2 hour class so it wasnt that bad.. hahahaha.. other than that 2day was fairly normal.. i hav no clue wat 2 do 2 enjoy my birthday weekend.. i usually dont hav much planned bt hopefully things will come up n surprise me bt i wont keep my hopes up.. this month will b quite hectic.. so will try 2 get many things done n all.. n in the end i hope that i will get a reward from all these things.. it doesnt hav 2 b an item as any possitive outcome will b more than enough..

      CIAO!!!

2 ppl cant change a Lightbulb

Mon, 30 Mar 2009 15:23:01 GMT

this happened just now.. 2 lightbulbs in my kitchen where nt functioning so my dad was changing it.. my mom ask me 2 lend a hand which was nt a gud idea.. i told them to call the electrician bt they wouldnt listen.. the 1st thing was 2 change the lightbulb which did nt work.. then i suggested again that we call 4 the electrician 2 come over 2moro.. bt still they think it all can b solved.. so we tried everything else like checking the main fuse n even checked 4 current using the pen thingy.. in the end we broke 1 brand new lightbulb n changed nth.. that was nt the outcome they expected n decided 2 give up.. i ended up cleaning up the mess n all.. my dad then got worried that my maid wont b able 2 cook breakfast 2moro so he wanted 2 go out n buy a table lamp 2 help her c in the morning.. so at 10 we went 2 the oni diy shop still open n went through all the things.. there were non we like so my dad had a bright idea.. it was 2 buy a bulb with wires n all while buyin a 3 pin plug 2 attach 2 it.. after all of this was done we went home n fixed the thing up.. when that was done we tested it.. n we blew the bulb.. we did nt read that the lightbulb could oni handle 'dc' n '12v' so it obviously would blow.. we found a spare lightbulb sumwhere n that ends 2nite.. this shows u that when u do all these things i think its best 2 do it alone..

besides that 2day was fine.. t3 was boring as usual n we had our last csb1 class 4 this sem.. went 2 pyramid 2 spend cash n hav n early dinner.. bought wat i wanted which was cheaper than i expected n had mfm wif azri.. i hav 2 stop buying all these things.. it seems 2 get pointless n it cost me a lot of cash.. hav 2 find better ways of spending my cash.. thats my day 2day.. CHIAO!!

Genting

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 15:17:32 GMT

this weekend was nt the best 2 say the least.. it all started wif friday which was another exam day.. i didnt hav much hope on the pprs bt when u dont hav a clue wat 2 write during an exam killed so much time that 2 hrs felt damn short.. i think failing is the outcome on at least 1 ppr so i seriously hav got work 2 do.. im even contemplating changing course or mayb just take t5 in dec.. if i do get barred i will try n take in june bt i wont mind it taking 5 pprs in dec.. had an ackward day 2 say the least after that.. a lot of unexpected events which i cant really recall..

on saturday was my moms co. family day which was all the way up in genting.. every year i dont feel like i wanna attend it bt i just force myself as i do wanna meet up wif ashman n zaid as we dont meet that often.. so we left around 10.. had breakfast at taipan b4 heading up.. reached in time 4 lunch there.. since the family day was really intended 4 team building the families were free 2 do as they like the whole time.. my dad, sis n bro all went out 2 enjoy the rides while i took a nap in the room.. woke up in time 4 dinner where as usual there were performances n games.. we celebrated earth hour konon nyer as we ate in the dark n the they had candles n glowsticks.. had starbucks b4 heading bak 2 end the nite..

woke up early 2day as i slept quite early as well.. watched catoons in the morning like gud old times.. dunno the names of them bt i did enjoy watching them.. was late 4 breakfast n headed 2 the theme parks as we had free tickets.. didnt go on any rides just played some karnival games n walked around.. went on all of them the last time i was there so didnt really feel like goin again.. had n early lunch n headed home 2 catch f1 on the telly.. the outcome was disssapionting n just spent the rest of the day playin games.. went 4 dinner at parade the cap off my sunday..

i would consider this 2 b a dull sunday.. there was nth i did which i really wanted 2 do.. it rained so futball was nt n option so that sucked.. comparing my day 2 sum1 i noe hus day was far worst than mine really made me appreciate all the things i did 2day.. i spent time wif my family n all so that is all that matters..

CHIAO!!

Blogging at the Yellow Tables

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 02:34:48 GMT

this week has been so hectic so far.. im blogging in campus at a place we call the 'yellow tables'.. i havent had time 2 update n as im free at the moment i shall do so now..

the last few dayz hav been completely filled out wif activities.. monday was such a tiring day as it was rite after the day spent at mpsj n all.. nth much happened though except that the new intake of students were in college 4 orientation.. tuesday was pretty much the same.. there was nt much aswell.. i had class till 6.30 which did tire me a bit.. slept off the whole nite that day.. wed was a nicer day.. had a shocking start in the morning.. it startled me 4 a while as it was unexpected.. i would love that 2 happen every morning .. nth much happened in class bt i was looking 4ward 2 the social gathering at nite.. azri dropped me n nawal at college.. we waited 4 ppl 2 arrive n subsequently headed 4 the mph 2 begin the nite n........ it was dissapointing.. it started off wif a speech which lasted 4eva.. there were all these performances which were quite boring.. there were so many ppl that i didnt feel like eating the free food.. so we went off 4 a bite elsewhere.. i was so dissapointed dressing up 4 the event n the event was 4 us to sosialise wif others which did nt happen.. went bak early n headed 4 home.. now on wif 2day.. skipped ms 4 obvious reasons.. everybody is studying around me n im here blogging.. hav class till late n have 2 study 4 t5 ltr

thats all.. CHIAO!!

Exhausted

Sun, 22 Mar 2009 14:05:20 GMT

2day was a hell of a day.. i woke up at 7 n quickly got ready 2 head 4 mpsj.. the sjc team had futsal there where a karnival was held 4 families living in subang.. there were lots of activities n booths 4 every1 2 enjoy.. bak 2 the futsal.. we sent 2 teams in the under 15 age group.. the entry fee was rm10 bt only ppl hu stay in subang r allowed 2 join.. the event was organised by mpsj n sponsored by nst.. in the end we ended up being 1st n 2nd.. we took bak the cash prize n will decide how 2 spend it ltr on.. it ended around 4ish n i subsequently headed 4 usj4 skool field 2 enjoy some sjc league games.. there were some new players so it was interesting 2 watch.. finally got bak after that at around 8.. in other words i was out of the hse 4 12 hrs.. now im damn tired.....

overall it was a day 2 enjoy.. the boyz enjoyed themselves while i did meet some old frenz hu participated in the event.. 2day adds on 2 make this weekend an eventful 1.. i had so much fun bt im exhausted.. i hav a long week ahead of me.. at least im in a better mood lately.. CHIAO!!

T1

Sat, 21 Mar 2009 15:38:59 GMT

2day is the t1 finals day.. its a saturday so i didnt feel like waking up early.. tried my best 2 get as much extra sleep as possible n managed only an extra half hour.. i arrived on time 4 the paper.. i felt sorry 2 the ppl hu were in the afternoon session as nobody informed them bout it.. they all came in the morning n had 2 wait many hours b4 their exam starts.. it started at 9 n i went out at 9.20ish.. i passed n thats all that matters .. had a chat wif arif 4 a while b4 goin 2 starbucks at sunway medical 2 meet up wif diyanah as she had some questions bout CAT.. she couldnt really believe that the price was quite reasonable.. she even wanted 2 enquire the sunway-tes dept.. she later went bak n i waited wif jia.. we were toking bout how everybody around me is connected some way or another.. next on my list is devin.. this is sad 4 me.. he failed his t1.. since he did nt take t2(barred) he will now have 2 differ 2 the next intake or hav 2 change course.. he still has no idea wat he wants 2 do.. so we went 2 the info centre where we were 4 more than an hour.. still we didnt get a decision out of him so we moved on.. we went 2 pyramid as wong wanted lunch.. i didnt eat bt i just lepak wif them while they enjoy their mcvalue meal.. i later went bak wif azim as he was there n 2 enjoy more time in his new hse.. hasnul, nina n zaq tagged along.. as usual we played some pool.. watched some movies n we actually jammed 4 a while.. it actually was nice since it brings bak memories when we would do this everyweek.. i was there till around 10 n went bak..

overall 2day rocked!! i enjoyed it more than previous dayz.. it got my mind off many things n im finally over wat i've been goin through the last few dayz.. goin 4 futsal 2moro.. nt actually playin bt coaching.. hope they do well.. CHIAO!!

A Day 2 4get

Fri, 20 Mar 2009 14:05:27 GMT

2day started off like SHIT!!! there was no electricity when i woke up n i planned 2 sleep the whole morning bt i couldnt sleep after that.. i did completely nth 4 more than 2 hours where tots were flowing in my head.. bt non was sumthin i would want 2 think about.. it was all things i would prefer 2 nt think bout.. so i decided 2 get away n take my mind off it so i went out.. first stop was friday prayers.. most ppl hu noe me would nt believe this bt yes i did go n i was there 4 the whole khutbah.. i tot that this would help me 4get as it really can help me calm down n stuff bt it didnt really help.. the second thing i tried was food.. we went 2 mmz where i would say has the best maggi goreng bt still that didnt work.. the third thing i tried would really get my mind off it.. i had no money so couldnt buy anithin so that also didnt help.. the last thing on my list was having a match against bj skool team.. ayai wanted exposure 4 the boys so we gladly went 4 a kick about.. we lost 5-3 in a cold blooded affair.. nt on the field bt off it.. there were a group of ppl that went 2 the field 2 lepak n support their frenz.. they brought some water n gave it around 2 the skool team bt ask 2 leave some.. 1 boy finished it n that was when the frenzy started.. it was like he was getting a divorce.. relak lah bro.. it was just water n i would pity the guys bro hu was playin.. he should b humiliated by the way his older bro acted.. it was completely unnecessary so that really spoilt my mood.. didnt have a gud game as there was nt much help.. quite dissapointed that some ppl r nt commited sumtimes when i hav 2 run my ass off( which i dont do very well ) n even injured myself previously as i like playin with commitment n will give u my all.. so even though it was just against a skool team bt at least play as a team.. 2moro there is a game against a league side n i will nt play.. its nt worth playin wif ppl hu r nt commited even during a real game.. mayb im overreacting bt i just hate doing the shitty work while u guyz just enjoy urself..

overall 2day sucked.. i tot this would have me prepare mentally 4 2moro bt i think it made it worst.. anywayz 2moro is t1 finals n im seriously nt gonna enjoy that.. hav 2 find soothing things 2 do 2moro.. on the brightside i SHAVED!! everybody called me jambu as it is strange 2 c mr like this.. CHIAO 4 NOW!!