2day is the t1 finals day.. its a saturday so i didnt feel like waking up early.. tried my best 2 get as much extra sleep as possible n managed only an extra half hour.. i arrived on time 4 the paper.. i felt sorry 2 the ppl hu were in the afternoon session as nobody informed them bout it.. they all came in the morning n had 2 wait many hours b4 their exam starts.. it started at 9 n i went out at 9.20ish.. i passed n thats all that matters .. had a chat wif arif 4 a while b4 goin 2 starbucks at sunway medical 2 meet up wif diyanah as she had some questions bout CAT.. she couldnt really believe that the price was quite reasonable.. she even wanted 2 enquire the sunway-tes dept.. she later went bak n i waited wif jia.. we were toking bout how everybody around me is connected some way or another.. next on my list is devin.. this is sad 4 me.. he failed his t1.. since he did nt take t2(barred) he will now have 2 differ 2 the next intake or hav 2 change course.. he still has no idea wat he wants 2 do.. so we went 2 the info centre where we were 4 more than an hour.. still we didnt get a decision out of him so we moved on.. we went 2 pyramid as wong wanted lunch.. i didnt eat bt i just lepak wif them while they enjoy their mcvalue meal.. i later went bak wif azim as he was there n 2 enjoy more time in his new hse.. hasnul, nina n zaq tagged along.. as usual we played some pool.. watched some movies n we actually jammed 4 a while.. it actually was nice since it brings bak memories when we would do this everyweek.. i was there till around 10 n went bak..

        overall 2day rocked!! i enjoyed it more than previous dayz.. it got my mind off many things n im finally over wat i've been goin through the last few dayz.. goin 4 futsal 2moro.. nt actually playin bt coaching.. hope they do well.. CHIAO!!

        2day started off like SHIT!!! there was no electricity when i woke up n i planned 2 sleep the whole morning bt i couldnt sleep after that.. i did completely nth 4 more than 2 hours where tots were flowing in my head.. bt non was sumthin i would want 2 think about.. it was all things i would prefer 2 nt think bout.. so i decided 2 get away n take my mind off it so i went out.. first stop was friday prayers.. most ppl hu noe me would nt believe this bt yes i did go n i was there 4 the whole khutbah.. i tot that this would help me 4get as it really can help me calm down n stuff bt it didnt really help.. the second thing i tried was food.. we went 2 mmz where i would say has the best maggi goreng bt still that didnt work.. the third thing i tried would really get my mind off it.. i had no money so couldnt buy anithin so that also didnt help.. the last thing on my list was having a match against bj skool team.. ayai wanted exposure 4 the boys so we gladly went 4 a kick about.. we lost 5-3 in a cold blooded affair.. nt on the field bt off it.. there were a group of ppl that went 2 the field 2 lepak n support their frenz.. they brought some water n gave it around 2 the skool team bt ask 2 leave some.. 1 boy finished it n that was when the frenzy started.. it was like he was getting a divorce.. relak lah bro.. it was just water n i would pity the guys bro hu was playin.. he should b humiliated by the way his  older bro acted.. it was completely unnecessary so that really spoilt my mood.. didnt have a gud game as there was nt much help.. quite dissapointed that some ppl r nt commited sumtimes when i hav 2 run my ass off( which i dont do very well ) n even injured myself previously as i like playin with commitment n will give u my all.. so even though it was just against a skool team bt at least play as a team.. 2moro there is a game against a league side n i will nt play.. its nt worth playin wif ppl hu r nt commited even during a real game.. mayb im overreacting bt i just hate doing the shitty work while u guyz just enjoy urself..

     overall 2day sucked.. i tot this would have me prepare mentally 4 2moro bt i think it made it worst.. anywayz 2moro is t1 finals n im seriously nt gonna enjoy that.. hav 2 find soothing things 2 do 2moro.. on the brightside i SHAVED!! everybody called me jambu as it is strange 2 c mr like this.. CHIAO 4 NOW!!

      2day was thursday which is after such a nice day b4.. it was t3 pt1 which is quite easy bt i didnt give it my all.. i was so eager 2 get out of the exam hall that i didnt answer all the questions.. had t4 class after that n had 2 fetch a cab bak as azri had 2 go 2 the workshop 2 pick up his car.. when i went bak aunt lina arrived from kuching.. i subsequently fell asleep as i was still tired from last nite's late meeting.. when i woke up i had a weird feeling where i seriously felt that sumthin is goin 2 go wrong..  i even post it on fb.. i later was just enjoying my nite till sumthin did go wrong.. i had a feeling bout this 4 a long time.. n i knew that i did nth 2 change wat happened.. this event really tells the story of my life.. living as a person hu can b soo confident where i can tell u all these things bt has nth done 2 make it happen.. wat a waste.. procrastinating is still an essential part of my life n i seriously need help bout this..

        the title says it all.. i enjoyed 2day 4 many reasons.. it is all coincidental n all bt i loved it so much.. started class at 8.30 which went by quite fast.. all day i was wif nawal toking bout stuff n looking at our skool yearbooks.. had lunch at medan n played cards as alwayz... finished the day wif t3 where we were let go abit earlier n i thank ms. yiong 4 that.. than this all coincidental thing started.. as some of u may noe that there is a person i enjoy 2 c in college.. i do kinda hav a crush on her.. i havent seen her in a while n all so i did say that it would make my day 2 c her.. so it all started when we left class n headed 2 the foyer.. i completely 4got bout it since me n nawal were discussing bout how she thinks that my cousin is her kindergarten fren.. alveena saw her n nawal chased after her.. so i did c her 4 a while which made me so happy till now.. it does sound lame n all 2 b so happy 2 c sum1 bt it just makes me take my mind off things that r nt goin 2 well in my life.. so TNX!!!! to all involved as it really made my day n i owe u guyz lunch 4 that.. went bak n slept off b4 heading 4 a meeting at unc. ronalds hse which lasted quite long.. this has caused me 2 nt b ready 4 2moro's t3 ppr..

that was my day where it was the best day in weeks.. CHIAO!!
 

       2day was St Patrick's Day.. so i will post this entry in green font.. i wore green 2day instinctively as i didnt noe bout it till i got home.. i went bak early 2day 4 .... reasons n went 2 parade in the evening.. saw zaf n fitri there n had sushi 4 dinner.. nt much 2 blog bout 2day.. Chiao 4 now then!!

       2day is sunday.. the end of another week n 2moro is the beginning of a new 1.. had a futsal tournament 2day.. we finished early as we were knocked out of our group.. nt really upset as we didnt expect a lot n we didnt hav 2 pay 2 join anywayz.. it was sad 2 c fendi getting injured.. thnk u 2 Dr. Aston 4 coming down 4 a consult n really helped us by giving us a fair rate as were students.. went 2 mmz 4 lunch n went 2 azri's hse as there was no 1 at home n i didnt hav a key.. slept 4 a while there b4 goin wif my dad n unc. fauzie 4 some tea at Old Town White Coffee in bangsar.. it was fun 2 c him again as he enlightens we wif many interesting n strange things which can b quite uncomfortable as my dad was there.. then had 2 go 2 the airport as my mom, sis n bro came bak from kuching.. nazrin is here 4 a week bt cant spend much time wif him as i hav college all week..

      i spent a lot of time wif my dad 2day.. i always enjoy talking 2 him as he is so knowledgeable n open minded.. i realised that i live around so many narrow minded ppl.. our education systems teaches 2 think that way.. even though they emphasize in KBKK where we hav 2 think creatively n so bt it actualy doesnt.. these questions ask 4 ur opinion bt the answers r already set based on the text.. our opinion which may differ from the answer is considered incorrect.. so its really nt that effective at all.. i cant really blame ppl 4 thinking this way as i cant b 2 critical of others.. nt everyone has travelled far n seen many things so their opinion will b based from wat they noe.. 4 example a person from a small village will always compare a new environment 2 their village especially if its their 1st time out of it.. their opinion will b different from a city person as they will have different lifestyles.. so their opinions will contradict each other bt both r nt wrong as its their opinion on wat they like n dislike..

     another thing is that ppl around me care 2 much bout making money than doing things they enjoy 4 the sake of enjoying it.. we should give some comitment 2 an organisation where even though we wont get paid.. if u r passionate towards sumthin u shouldnt think only bout money as u will nt enjoy doin it.. its upsetting 2 c that ppl r willing 2 quit n blame others when they didnt do much 2 help anywayz.. it isnt easy 2 manage a society n hav everyone happy whithin it.. it would b better 2 help each other as its a learning process where everyone is doin this 4 the 1st time..

    i cant really b that upset wif them as they would feel the same bout me.. bt i wish ppl will use their brains more often.. thats all 4 2day..

      Life will alwayz hav its ups n downs.. there can b more ups than downs bt things r goin the other way 4 me rite now.. there has been so many things that has dissapoint me bt i always hav my football 2 cheer me up sumtimes..

Wednesday

    it was an ordinary day wif revision 4 t1.. there were many things that i learnt n sum new things 2 nt understand.. had lunch at pink n thats bout it (dont remember much)

Thursday

    this was a big day 4 me.. the spm results day.. came 2 skool n waited 4 quite some time.. n when it came out the outcome was upsetting.. nt gonna mention wat i get bt its a lot less than expected.. 4 nt putting much effort 4 spm i did have higher hopes.. well it felt sad 4 a while seeing as my mom was there.. they have spent so much money 4 my edu bt i gave them bak shit!! so thats how it feels 2 fail everyone around me.. my dad didnt even care as he expected it.. a lot of thinking was done that day n 4 once im embaressed at sumthin i did which is nt like me.. thank god i have CAT 2 redeem myself..

Friday

    it was an off day 4 us 2 prepare 4 the t2 exam.. took the oppurtunity 2 wake up late.. azri picked me up 4 prayers which we barely made it.. we subsequently went 2 one utama wif the teloq ayam boys where we wanted to grab a bite.. they decided on carls jr. so i just went wif it.. next was up 2 nike where we went on a shopping spree.. i bought an omni.. azri bought gloves.. adeeb bought a nike pro n knee guard.. went 2 bj 4 some footy n went bak home 2 study abit.. it took my mind off my results bt still just thinking of it is upseting..

Saturday

   2day was the t2 final examinations.. went early 2 college 2 take the test.. i passed the paper n thats that.. again i took it lightly n didnt score that well.. so im really screwing up everythin.. we went 2 bowl 4 a while b4 goin 2 mamak 4 lunch.. i then followed aaron n ben 2 california fitness as aaron wanted 2 get fit.. it was a nice experience n im contemplating joinin myself.. my team has ask me 2 get my fitness bak 4 quite a while n i need 2 improve my knee strength.. had training wif sjc n went out 4 dinner wif my dad as everyone else is in kuching( couldnt go bak bcos of t2 )..

these ups n downs shows how life works.. u cant live a perfect life.. sum of it was in my control bt i havent done my bit so i cant complain.. i will continue in this new chapter in my life.. hav a tournament 2moro .. hope it goes well ..gotta get some sleep soon..

      2day was the start of 2 dayz of revision 4 the upcoming finals.. the mock results were also returned 2day.. it is quite upsetting 2 c my results gradually decreasing each exam n it is my fault totally.. i just cant help it.. i cant even concentrate on anithin in class.. i seriously felt damn dumb after we discussed the answers n there were mistakes that r so stupid that i seriously should knock my head wif a cucumber.. better get my head rite b4 finals..

      2day started well as we were playin cards 4 a while.. class started at 9 n finished at 4.. we discussed all the papers n did some revision.. had 2 rush during lunch as it was cut short.. went bak n played gta till late..

     finals is in 4 dayz time n im still doin all these things.. i havent changed abit since leaving school.. i havent started on the funtask.. have nt done the t1 ppr.. hav nt studied any t5 which im so gonna fail again.. y do i put myself in this predicament?? i noe that i hav sum1 hu is all i can think off rite now bt that should nt b an excuse.. this is nt gonna put me in a good mood 4 2moro.. sumore hav 2 deal wif ms. yiong hu obviously hates me.. just gotta get thru it n get really 4 finals..

    nt so scared of spm results.. hav more things which is more important.. i think my class outing on fri is wat i need.. bt then again i would still b slacking off..

   Ciao 4 now...

       The last 2 dayz has been tiring.. hav been out of home most of the time.. i was only bak 2 sleep last nite.. sunday started off very boring as i had 2 go 4 a lecture at metro 4 3 hrs bt im glad i got it over wif.. had lunch at mmz wif dad b4 goin down 2 the usj 4 field 2 watch some futbal.. ended being the linesman again... didnt find any players 4 sjc bt at least watched some decent games n azri came 4 a while wif wan.. had futsal that nite as well.. it was quite upsetting that was stuck wif some kaki bangku's bt it wasnt that bad.. went 2 mmz again ltr b4 heading home 4 bed.. slept around 3 ish..
 
       the next day was monday n a public holiday.. it was the prophets bday n it was n xtra day off 4 everyone.. woke up late tnx 2 futsal n went 2 azim's new hse.. his new hse is HUGE!! i had a feeling it was big bt damn.. he invited a few of us n we were there 4 quite some time.. we played pool, foosbal n some ps3 while zaq jammed 4 abit.. he did give us a tour of the hse n showed us his swimming pool n it even has a waterfall over it.. went bak at 7.30 n went 4 dinner..

     it feels nice 2 finally b back home.. class again 2moro bt finish quite early.. have 2 prepare 4 t2 cbe exam on sat.. hopefully it all goes well..         

     Didnt blog yesterday as i felt so lazy.. nt much happened the last few dayz.. on fri was MOCKS!!! it was quite good overall.. t1 was hard n i dont really care wat i get.. while t2 was rather easy bt i dont think will score that well.. i finished early then went back home.. azri was there 4 a while though he was being weird as usual then slept a while b4 gettin ready 4 a session wif bill at nite.. we were in CLC1 4 3hrs n it was quite fun.. we had to create our own company n nawal suggested the name Brothers & Sisters pte. ltd 4 our company n we just agreed 2 that.. we had 2 make up all the assets n stuff which does sound lame bt i kinda enjoyed all the weird suggestions n the facebook-ing...

     sat was ok.. woke up late as usual.. my sis decided 2 go to mid valley so i took up her offer.. we left around 12 then singgah sunway 2 pick up azri b4 makin our way there.. i ended up buying nth which was quite a waste bt did find a few things 2 buy once i get more cash.. hahahaha.. cant help spending even in hard times.. had training wif sjc in the evening where few showed up.. had fun playing wif them bt was quite exhausting.. i hav class at metro 2moro which SUCKS!!! bt hav 2 get it over wif..

    till then.. Cheerio!!