lately i hav been reminiscing my past in my free time.. the past is sumthin that we can cherish all the gud times bt also sumthin we wish we can change 2 make ammends 4 all the wrongs we hav done.. thinking bout it brings bak all the times i hav spent wif my family n frenz.. whether new or old i will nvr 4get all the things u guyz hav done 4 me n i wish u can 4give me if i ever hurt u in any way..
i hav alwayz tend 2 b emotional in wateva i do.. u can refer my previous post 2 get the details.. i hav alwayz fallen 4 ppl around me.. whether i noe them or nt it does nt change wat i feel bout them.. i will alwayz judge a person on how they act which is where i will get feelings 4 them.. even if i do fall 4 sum1 it doesnt mean that i will go all out 2 get her as i will alwayz take my time.. i will alwayz share it 2 my closest fren hueva it may b at the time.. im a very old fashioned person in anithin i approach n i alwayz wanna do it the rite way.. this leaves me 2 b very conservative n will nt b brave enough 2 take action.. over the past few years i hav fallen 4 ppl over n over again.. bt i hav never been wif any of them.. my last n oni 1 was wif sum1 hu liked me rather than me liking her.. obviously that didnt end well n im bak 2 square 1.. i dunno y im being so open bout this 2day bt i just feel like expressing wat i feel rite now n get it off my chest..
letting go has alwayz been the hardest.. it may take a short time to get over this bt it may take longer sumtimes.. rite now im at that stage again bt im doin better than previously.. 2 the ppl that dont noe me that well u will never expect all these things as i may alwayz act cheerful n full of life bt actually it is just my way 2 protect myself from my weaknesses.. that weakness will alwayz b there.. it is alwayz haunt me n never leave me alone.. this will b fealt by ppl hu r dear 2 my heart n they will b the oni ones hu will noe how i feel.. i wish it can be quaratined so that it does nt hurt me or any1 else.. that weakness is me....
Posted at 11:10 pm by
hazey
